being in charge of healing something you didn’t break is one of the most frustrating components to not being stuck in my past. This video is vulnerable, whoa how healing it isn’t linear. As much as I wish there was a magic button I find myself fine one day to suddenly feeling like I’m right back to square one. Triggers are so real and while you or I may be “removed” from the person or situation it’s etched into our core memories and sits there when untouched or unhealed. And it’s frustrating. I feel anger in these moments. To be in charge of a healing for something I didn’t break. It feels unfair to know someone is unscathed while I find myself and the ones I love dodging my minefield of trauma I didn’t create. But I’m learning It’s brave to crumble. And in this moment, I could choose to push through and ignore the very real trigger at the surface or I could bravely crumble as I leaned into discomfort. Sometimes leaning into discomfort looks like giving yourself permission to crumble. For a moment compassionately extending kindness towards the you seeking vulnerability seeking a safe place. And while to pretend I’m good or I’ve got this would be easier, it’s not the truth. Even years of therapy and work towards healing I still crumble under the pressing triggers darting after me. And that’s okay. Because every opportunity I have to give myself a safe place is a step towards my heart recognizing it can feel safe with me, that I won’t ignore it ever again. Healing is hard, it feels unfair. But it’s brave. And it shows growth when you can recognize you have to allow yourself to crumble to heal. #abusesurvivor
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